I’m still affected by the decisions of my past, be it my own decisions or those made for me as I grew into adulthood. I move through life on one accord; my steps.
"Christopher Nolan builds cathedrals in his movies. My goal is to build cathedral-esque worlds and let the -graphy of the photo blindly shine through. So even if you can't see it, you'll get a feeling. The feeling."
Law(s) being the purest way to all desires, be it believed in love or believed in doubt. A flash of the city; the goal of my heart's desire, I acknowledge first, visually. This is to keep the picture in my mind while on the journey. My internal goal is to transform my life to that of a highly successful screenplay writer & director, an amazingly talented musician and a skilled artist with integrity. My affirmative goal is to travel the world and make money with my friends. All things are possible when I look at the city’s skyline. Now I look back, I think that it is actually New Jersey’s skyline but on the date of filming I was okay with pretending that it was the New York City skyline. No matter what, I could tell that the camera was my POV at that current moment and that one day I’d be that person on that little white boat in between me and the city aka my goals. And in knowing that I AM LAW and studying the 12 Universal Law’s, I knew the first Law must be offered and graced as the foundation. The Law of Divine Oneness which states that beyond our senses every living thing vibrates and is connected; everything, everywhere, all at once.
I took a snippet out of an episode of the television show Law & Order, where the chief is under investigation for the doings of his team. Though the moment was awkward, he had one suggestion for his team, to “follow the rules for a while.” In which, one responds, “There’s rules, and then there’s bureaucracies.”
Governmental laws are to rules, as universal laws are to bureaucracies.
I am Law, that of myself and of my doings and of my thoughts. My higher-self governs me.
This introduction is a beautiful one to look back on and acknowledge. I knew then that I had an understanding of what I was doing. And now I have a great innerstadnig of what I’ve done. It’s funny that I felt it, I believed in myself even though I couldn’t see the full picture. I was in there creating it and I love that I overcame my edgy anxiousness and kept my head up and the camera rolling.
I filmed myself smoking a wildly rolled, wrap. This is when I could not roll properly to save my life. But I could roll effectively to get to that point of focus, poke us, source. I made that line up, just now. Meaning that I smoke to get to a point in my perceiving mind, that I am channeling this other realm simultaneously with “this” realm. Poke us, is me telling the Universe or Source to show us the signs, give us a nudge when we are looking and still aren’t quite seeing it. Source is source, God, the grandest knowledge of all, the collectiveness of all things and beings. My all time goal is to be just as great as Source in my own right; My Higher-Self. 😏
Introducing myself, plainly for those that didn’t realize initially. I do this little giggle and I didn't realize other people noticed. Now that I know they know, it surfaces more often...and I like that. {input the giggle...can you hear it? 😏}
Through My Eyes is a silent film, showing the journey of a train ride from a Manhattan to Brooklyn on what looks like a Sunday AM. I say Sunday, to emphasize the emptiness of the car that I was seated in. I remember this day because I was about 2 hours late to a bartending job I had. I kept telling myself that if I never actually record the moments I’d never have the movie to show. So, I said Fuck It! Just Do It, which was on my lock screensaver at the time, and I began filming on the train. The result was an amazing piece. I was comfortable and grateful of my decision to act. The original composition that plays in the background is by the mother of the little baby that "visually" walks through my mind. A friend, and confidant that I have grown/journeyed with and forever will ascend with. The visuals that splice in and out are representations of my thoughts of home. The love that I’ve left behind but that is also within me. We live in a time where we can call and speak to those at a distance, we can video chat with them as well. And I am appreciative of this time to be alive. With that I shall continue to notice the connectedness of all of my decisions and experiences and continue to strive, stride, and accomplish happiness in my world.
My Question Is, is a document of the experiences of the people that I come in contact with. I’ll ask them permission to record them answering a question on camera. They do not get to hear the question until the camera begins to roll. My reasoning for this is for me to personally see their mind at work. I’ll know how serious they are about speaking their minds and from the answer they give I’ll have my knowledge on the individual. I like to know that the people of the world are still thinkers at best, because we need thinker’s in order to become the doers of those congregated thoughts. I included myself in the visual in black and white to show the express contrast and the self-reflection we can all benefit from after experiencing his thoughts.
“My heart came to get me. Been with me the whole bid, the whole 15 [years].” -Johnny Savage [My Pops]
Those of us who decided to stroll the path of the smoker's life deserve and inclusive space to be a smoker. So yes! A smoke break is included.
There are moments in these videos -a collection of time- in which I seek the wisdom to shape me into the Greatness I plan to become. That's reliable to me. In conclusion, I realize and accept that it is always best to experience and learn from all situations. Sometimes there will be books to read on the subject, other times there will be people to tell you their stories, most times you'll be living through the lessons as they present themselves while you are journeying your path.
