The film takes place in my thoughts while searching for relief, with freedom in the grip of The Blight.
The video depicts how I have to remind myself everyday to choose the best experience now for the future me. There was a time when I would over analyze situations and decisions to understand the cause of a presently unwanted attraction. How did I pull this one? How is this really a reflection of me? What have I been on accepting? What could I be thinking to have these same bad habits? It's the negative energy, the poor behavior, the continuous cycle of allowing what doesn't agree with your truest self. What do you actually desire...and take the moments you need to ask yourself these questions and allow yourself to speak from a deeper place within.
I wanted to know, when did I decide to let go of all of my boundaries and accept or intake the anxieties I initially felt or saw in the room? And honestly, everything answers those questions. Random objects pointing out the silent cues, a random string of words overheard from the mouths of others, texts messages, especially felt energies and vibes. And by deciding against discernment and overlooking, these specific moments, is precisely when I have decided for something outside of myself and it brought me to my lowest points in life's journey. It becomes less about the time spent and all about the mental capacity one has to keep their dreams and desires alive in order for their truest future self to receive.
I can see that I was zoned out playing thoughts and or scenarios in my head, the melodic thoughts. I come back to this reality, just in time to silently recall and decide where I was and whom I would be. So I said Peace unto you and unto me.
“Cuz I learned how to control you. So when I'm out here trying to speed through, I don't try baby that's what I do.” - SanginAss Law
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